Amazed

Seriously? wow.
Thankfulness seriously opens you up to the presence of God. Just, how He chooses to love us - not in spite of, but regardless of whatever we've done. I am continually amazed at how He has chosen to use me and change my life, especially in this past year. The knowledge that He holds my right hand, goes in front AND behind me - I'm surrounded everywhere I go. He has taken my circumstances and used them to CONVINCE me of His love, His faithfulness, His mercy, His grace, His absolute sovereignty over every aspect of life. (Lord, I'm amaaaazed by You - how You love me) Makes me want to weep...He's just so. good.
I can't even tell you what this song means to me; calms my heart, settles my spirit, and energizes me simultaneously. ah, Jesus, I will worship You for who You are.

Something I'm working on - I understand that people praise & worship in different ways, and that everything we do is supposed to be a form of worship/glorifying to God. What I don't understand, is when you KNOW how great our God is - how can you just sit with your hands in your pockets during a worship service? (however, there's the whole "be STILL and know that I am God," which is completely legit) Maybe it's just because I've danced for so long that I'm used to moving when I hear music..but I don't think that's all of it. I guess, I'm just not capable of expressing my love for Him by not doing anything. I don't know...but I do know that God sees where your hands are, as well as where your heart is (and that's the half that really matters). It could just be me; we all worship differently, and it's judgment on my part to think less of someone for simply being still.

ahhhhhh, but LORD! please oh please let my future beloved have a desire, a passion to worship You with his whoooole heart! I want to be led spiritually and be able to sincerely respect and love him..just, please let him want ALL that You have for him. I feel like crying at the thought of having someone who wants no part of Your Holy Spirit...I can't even describe how encouraging it is to see a man (or woman) completely broken before You...may he be like that, too. Let him know Your love, and yearn to feel it and share it each and every day. I just don't want to be standing in church with someone sitting next to me... God, if this desire is not of You, then please break it, mold it, form it, change it, SOMETHING..but there must be a reason that I feel so passionately about this. Daddy Lord, may we both be hungrier and hungrier for allll of You..don't let us settle for less than Your perfect will. Thank you that no matter what - You make all things work together for my (our) good. Father, you're so faithful and beautiful...I just love You, and will continue to give You ALL my worship. In Your precious Name, amen.