oh Lord...You would

"Have you ever come to Jesus? Watch the stubbornness of your heart, you will do anything rather than the one simple childlike thing - "Come unto Me." If you want the actual experience of ceasing from sin, you must come to Jesus.

Jesus Christ makes Himself the touchstone. Watch how He used the word "Come." At the most unexpected moments there is the whisper of the Lord - "Come unto Me," and you are drawn immediately. Personal contact with Jesus alters everything. Be stupid enough to come and commit yourself to what He says. The attitude of coming is that the will resolutely lets go of everything and deliberately commits all to Him.

". . . and I will give you rest," i.e., I will stay you. Not - I will put you to bed and hold your hand and sing you to sleep; but - I will get you out of bed, out of the languor and exhaustion, out of the state of being half dead while you are alive; I will imbue you with the spirit of life, and you will be stayed by the perfection of vital activity. We get pathetic and talk about "suffering the will of the Lord!" Where is the majestic vitality and might of the Son of God about that?"

-Oswald Chambers (June 11th, MUFHH)

ha, I love that - "Be stupid enough to come and commit yourself to what He says."

I wasn't stupid enough this week to come to Him. Definitely wise and prideful in my own eyes. It hurts. and I feel stupid for going through the same junk again...like it's lessons that I thought I learned before. (hm, guess NOT!) eesh. I'm quite sick of myself. Praise God for never ceasing to sing over me...it's to my own detriment that I chose to stop listening and wallow in my own whateverness. I don't mean for this post to be like, 'woe is me, I'm such a martyr,' but just to share my imperfections...but I don't think this is the stuff I'm supposed to boast in - ha, is stupidity a weakness? God, I pray you were glorified somewhere along the way this week. I just feel like I've wasted my time. but no longer. for my God is greater!


My little sister was right. I make myself anxious for no reason. (dahh, and by His grace, I am more secure than that, because I am rooted in HIM!) oh Lord, that I would be with You where You are...
goodness.
Dying to my flesh. every day. all day. continnnual process. hallelujah.

Can I please take a nap? that would be super fabulous. amen.

I wish I could start my week where I finally reach on Friday afternoon. You know? But at the same time, I love the conviction & peace that comes now (actually, mighta been here the whole time - but I wasn't ready to receive it).

that's all. too many jumbled thoughts...it's what I get for six hours on one subject w/o enough sleep. =]
Jesus loves you.